hummphh..whatever

the shit you hear about me might be true..

then again..

it could be as fake as the BITCH who told you :o]

i want.

supposed to shop. but, grr. i didnt see anything nice. grr.

i'm supposed to get this one damn fcking pretty PANTS.

nad already bought first and unfortunately for her , i fell in love with it at the first sight.

darn!

i want it toooooooooooooooooooo. so badly that i can frown the whole dayy. :

so yeahh. that was IT. so disappointed. i wish i'm filthy rich that i can grab anything that catches my eyes.

sobb. too bad i'm not for those who are, stop being spoiled brats.

(perhaps i'll b spoiled too, if i'm super duper super duper rich right? lol. )

questions.

i am a very very miserable person. i love keeping all sorts of shits to myself. most ppl know that i get jealous faster than the lightning. (i think. or is it jst me?) lol. wtv it is, yes, its true, i do. maybe its jst because i'm too immune to him, it means like, i'm so used to hv him for my own. get what i mean? so like, bla bla bla. ;

i hate ppl who messes with my mind. i hate it. cz it gets me thinking. all day long. about absolutely rubbish! its like, whatt a waste of time. and who to b blamed? you.
well, i love assuming things. i always think that i knoww. i always think that my theories are right. bt somehow, i do listen to other ppl too. i'm nt this sucked up brat or whatever. make sense? lol. farnny.


i'd love to have new friendly friends. but, i dnt wanna go after something that doesnt want me.
so yeahh, i love to jst sit and wait. :) bt sometimes, it depends. lol. i lalalalalove my friends. friends are the bombs. LOL.

hmmm.

i'd like to know how much do i actually matter to you.

can you tell?


"you expect too much" = wrong answer, sorry!

Argh.

sometimes i wonder what does a person has to do to deserve a slap in the face from me?


because i think i'm a really really really patient person. you throw to me anything or whatever in my face i'll just deal with it, patiently, i guess? i have gone through a lot. i admit, i bottled things up alot inside sometimes. but sometimes, i don't think it'll make any difference by spilling it out.... it's just gonna cause even more pain or make things go from good to bad or even to worse. and i don't want that.

you do whatever you like. you say whatever you wanna say. you get whatever you ask for. you go wherever you like. you love whoever you want. you leave whoever you like. you talk to whoever you like. you care about whoever you like.



hmm.. i'm clueless..

:'(

i'm leaving. i am. leaving. ahh whatever lah! bye.

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current mood: (i'm just guessing..) see below.. lol.. yea wtf.. :(

Sadness

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sadness is an emotion characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, and helplessness. When sad, people often become quiet, less energetic, and withdrawn. Sadness is considered to be the opposite of happiness, and is similar to the emotions of sorrow, grief, misery, and melancholy. The philosopher Baruch Spinoza defined sadness as the “transfer of a person from a large perfection to a smaller one.”

Sadness can be viewed as a temporary lowering of m

ood (feeling blue), whereas clinical depression is characterized by a persistent and intense lowered mood, as well as disruption to one's ability to function in day to day matters.

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"You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel."


sorry. i just had to google for sad images for this post. it represents my mood. because i never really camwhored a sad face. (i'll look fucking ugly, so yea, sorry la) well, the first one is damn fugly also and the second one made me wanna smile.......

gahhh!

oh well, i end up cheering up myself with my own silliness, stupidity and moron-ness :) yeay chibs ;)

i fucking hate liars. don't you?

how i wish..

i wish i know who to believe.
i wish i know what to believe.
i wish i know who to trust.
i wish i know what to trust.
i wish i know who to listen to.
i wish i know what's true and what's not.
i wish i know what's good and what's bad.
i wish i know who's good and who's bad.
i wish i know what's a lie and what's not.
i wish i know who's an ass and who's a bitch.
i wish i know how to express my anger.
i wish i know myself better.
i wish i know it all!

but the truth is, i don't :'(

and i'm clueless